Here you come again
knocking down my walls
pretending that I still love you
finding out that I still do.
You come with the lyrics of romantic songs
and linger with the notes
while describing the anecdotes
that should be long gone.
No matter how hard I try
memories bring our love back to life
back into my heart
far away from my present and my mind.
Here I go again
letting myself go
embracing your presence
and reminiscing about our world.
You come with the words of other’s lovers songs
and your aroma lingers with the notes
that describe profound love
the one that made us fall.
So here we are again
and again I think of you
my possession and my obsession
my lover yet my tormentor.
You come with some words
you come with some notes
memories become the melody of my own song
and my heart dances for a bit more.
And we are together again
and I feel what I felt back then
when our love was pure and serene
when deception was not your friend.
Again and again
I find you in my head
and we dance together
while we feel the air.
Again and again you come into my world
attached to the lyrics of old song
and so does the love
and so does the sob.
Again and again
I remember you
abandoning me
leaving me behind and never looking back.
But I can’t say that I miss you
because I truly don’t
It is me whom I do miss
feeling free to love without fears.
You come with the lyrics of old songs
and with you and with your love
come the deception
the pain that has been long gone.
Here I am again
knowing that you are my past
and that I no longer want
the promises of deceiving lies.
You come with the words of lovers songs
and sometimes with a melody of my own
pretending that I still love you
finding out that I still do.
But freeing my love from hurt
vanishes your presence in my soul
it liberates me from the boredom
of thinking of us as one world.
Here I go again
letting you inside my head
and again, I’m letting ourselves go
like we did yesterday.
By Carolina Gonzalez (Carolina Portilla Garcés) 2015 © #carolinaswords