Some nights I just can’t fall asleep.
Even if I am tired
my eyes are closing down
and my lips are already dry
I just can’t fall asleep.
As every minute takes its course
as the night grows quieter
and my breathing becomes passive…
I can’t seem to just be free.
There is just too much to think.
Rewarding would be these moments
if peaceful dreams would come to mind
But the nightmares just take over and fly
they go looping around my heart.
Regularities of life, passive-aggressive passing of time,
stop me for falling
stop me for feeling
from fancying the flight.
I just want to let go of the dreams
I just want to live inside of them;
but other nights
I just want to fall asleep
I just want to fall and not feel…
To know that I have done it all
And now is time for me to go.
By Carolina Gonzalez (Carolina Portilla Garcés)
August 2017 – Texas