Some nights I just can’t fall asleep.

Even if I am tired

my eyes are closing down

and my lips are already dry

I just can’t fall asleep.

As every minute takes its course

as the night grows quieter

and my breathing becomes passive…

I can’t seem to just be free.

There is just too much to think.

Rewarding would be these moments

if peaceful dreams would come to mind

But the nightmares just take over and fly

they go looping around my heart.

Regularities of life, passive-aggressive passing of time,

stop me for falling

stop me for feeling

from fancying the flight.

Some nights,

I just want to let go of the dreams

Some nights,

I just want to live inside of them;

but other nights

I just want to fall asleep

I just want to fall and not feel…

To know that I have done it all

And now is time for me to go.

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By Carolina Gonzalez (Carolina Portilla Garcés)

August 2017 – Texas

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