Despojo ©

Es inevitable este sentimiento …
He tratado de olvidarlo, borrarlo, perderlo
pero es inevitable …

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From Within ©

For fearing rejection I made myself all yours For fearing loneliness I attached myself to you Now, I fear the emptiness the one that comes from this deceit. Now, I feel the unhappiness  the sorrow dripping down my chin. All of this fear is coming from within From not believing in me from not fulfilling…

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Reaction ©

Happiness is a reaction for some it is a state of mind but for me is the opposite of sadness and sadness is what I have. Written by Carolina Gonzalez (Carolina Portilla Garcés) CarolinasWords May 25th 2019

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Missing the Tears ©

Today, I am missing the tears the explosion of sadness, the freedom, the fear; the unloading of emotions, the exorcism, the unburden, the rid of the despair – my dear! I am missing crying, the lagoons in my eyes, the blurry vision, the cloudy world… the lack of air in my heart. But I can’t…

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Bipolar ©

Bipolar is my heart the duality of life for you that left me hanging to free fall into your arms. Oh love! Once more How far can I go? For your surface is so rough yet your stillness is my home. By Carolina Gonzalez – (Carolina Portilla Garcés) #carolinaswords Frisco, TX. – November 4th, 2017…

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Drifting Away ©

I cannot cry any more tears my entire body is suffocating my mind my breathing is hollow  my vision is blurry I wish I could cry I am tired of screaming I can not keep on fighting the same old fight I am exhausted and mortified  Perhaps I have not found my space perhaps I…

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Brandon ©

Disheveled I did find you on the corner of our street  staring at the floor playing with the dirt on your feet. Days must have gone by, for your skin revealed a journey, since I left you, with the others, on the other side of that corner. And I wanted you to be there in…

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Why the Pain? ©

“Dwelling on hurtful emotions can be a sign of weakness; but not dwelling on them would be a total mistake. For one must find the reasons for those emotions, and understand why it hurts, why the pain”. Carolina Gonzalez – June 2016 – © (Carolina Portilla Garcés) #carolinaswords

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That Feeling ©

“Sadness might be a symptom, a signal of some sort; but above all, it is a reflection of how vulnerable you have become” Carolina Gonzalez – June 2016 – © (Carolina Portilla Garcés) #carolinaswords

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To Fall and Not Feel ©

Some nights I just can’t fall asleep. Even if I am tired my eyes are closing down and my lips are already dry I just can’t fall asleep. As every minute takes its course as the night grows quieter and my breathing becomes passive… I can’t seem to just be free. There is just too…

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Temores ©

Con todos estos temores que venís cargando a tus espaldas habés dejado de mirar al cielo y te habés convertido en la sombra que cobija tus propios sueños. Con la vista hacia el suelo por el peso inmenso de tus mismos miedos caminas lento y sin mucho empeño y el poco avanzar te ha dejado…

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Dismay ©

“Believe me, my dear” He said believed him, indeed, she did and now she can not blame him instead as the reason for her dismay. By Carolina Gonzalez (Carolina Portilla Garcés) Frisco, Texas – July 2016 #carolinaswords

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